At first my usage was light but over time it amplified (especially with the Murderapparel Halloween Is Coming Shirt moreover I will buy this rise of Instagram). My routine became more intricate: lipstick, lip liner, eye liner, primer, foundation, concealer, shadow, mascara, spray… every morning. Every day. With time, my confidence grew tremendously due to wearing it. Around 18, as I was coming out of my awkward teenage years I begun hearing the words “you’re so pretty!” more which became sort of like a drug.
I became addicted “pretty” fast, to the Murderapparel Halloween Is Coming Shirt moreover I will buy this sort of pretty that only makeup could give me and in return this made it impossible to like my natural face. I gained confidence at the expense of hating my natural self. I kind of feel like a slave now. I have had days where I felt I couldn’t leave the house without makeup, even to go to the gym. Just thinking about showing my bare face in public gives me anxiety because what if people think I’m SOoooOo ugly.
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